[10 May 2008|07:10pm] The Keys to Your Heart You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. What Are The Keys To Your Heart? post comment

[07 May 2008|06:39pm] If you ask me what's the sweetest thing on earth. I would say it's my grandma. :) 2 comments|post comment

ships [27 Feb 2008|08:00pm] [ mood | indescribable ] I've been in an irritatable mood these days. I don't understand why some guys can be so desperate, and makes me wonder what's their motive. Why are they trying so hard when actually the other party is already hinting so obviously. Push away, go away. Someone give in, but never will I, cos my decision will always stand firm. Why is that, that pure friendship cannot stay that way, why do we have to talk about feelings? Don't we all have something better to do, more important things to accomplish other than looking for the one? I hate relations attached with a special feeling, it adds to the stress, makes people feel uneasy. Especially when it's not mutual anymore. It was just infutuation. Maybe, you can prove your worthwhile. Show that you deserve that someone you have been looking out for, show that you are worth the sacrifice, the time and the love. We all like no one without any character. While I'm still waiting and not looking. That's because I do not want to start something that I'd know would end within a short time, say 6 months. Let's not waste our time, it's not about giving one a chance or not, not about missing an opportunity, cos I see no opportunity. I hope that I'm drawing a very clear line here. Perhaps, maybe, I would want to work things out when I feel like it, when I'm in the status of looking. We're all young and have a bright future, let's not ruin ourselves with things like this at the point of time. Let's handle issues with some level of maturity. 3 comments|post comment

phone call [26 Feb 2008|08:10pm] I don't wish to be ordinary, nor simple. I recieved an overseas call from Rodeline this morning, it was with-held thus I couldn't track down the number, but she said she will sms me. She didn't though. I was really happy to answer the call, at first I didn't know who it was cause I've never heard her voice on the phone before (: It's really heart warming to get a call from an overseas friend. Despite the distances and the fact that we've never met in real life before, I learnt that friendship and love can still exist between 'strangers'. We have been friends for like almost 5 years and we are actually online pals. We still have loads to chat about and despite our age gap, she respects me and doesn't treat me like a little kid. Now, at least I know she's doing fine as a domestic helper in Hong Kong and her contract would end in 2010, I will wait for her return. I'm glad that she kept her promise by informing me when she gets a good employer, at least I know she still remembers a friend like me =3 I told Rodeline I'd hire her when I grow up and become rich, I think I would be able to make that promise cause I will work hard. People, don't you think that meeting a friend online is really special thing? I think cyber-dating is romantic too. post comment

[21 Feb 2008|12:22am] Did you know that rats actually can climb up the walls?! We were shocked to know and when I figured out how it can do so, I actually acted it out, and the pest buster was so amused that he told me to do it again lolol, how retarted. Wah, the rat was damn large, really creepy. We started screaming outside kbox when we saw auntie and fifi screaming from inside the shop, how hilarious!  I went to catch P.S. I love you today. So romantic, but some parts really too short to make one tear. Don't you think it's blissful for a girl to die earlier than her spouse? At least, she wouldn't need to be endure loneliness for the rest of her lives.  LOLOL! I thought that what qs has said is funny qian shan says (12:29 AM): i mean my house on lvl 10 whoo rats are powerful man qian shan says (12:30 AM): i cant even climb to roof i know! bos its e year of rats i bet kbox is goin to flourish mlzy says (12:31 AM): WOW ur tongue so glib uh LOL post comment

[14 Feb 2008|08:30pm] Valentine's day how special can it get every year? However, it can never be any better if I haven't made such wonderful friends from school =3 I've made a new discovery as well! I've a talent at writing quality(funny) poetry!!! I'm a good poet. LOL. Valentine is to be spent with your group of friends who are single! YAY! We went Holland V today and saw a few familiar faces! Alot of funny things happened today. But I don't know where to begin! We just laughed our asses off like there's no tomorrow. I think I had fun, although I got no darling to spend with on V'day, I have DARLINGSSSS! I was on the phone with my ex colleague just now, hahaha offering him dating tips, I think I'm becoming a love consultant. I myself got no experience! Woohoo, great. My sister got royce chocolates from her admirer!! She asked me for advice too!!! I feel so sage. My girlfriends said that I'm v high today and I agree. I don't know why, but on days like this, I get hyper. Bookshop auntie really berii cool! She taught us alot of 'skills' today, so we learnt alot. HAAHHAHAH. *sniggers* I'm bored, must go to bed, or else tomorrow would be late for school again =( YAY!!! PAY DAY TMR!!! OMG OMG!! :D HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL MY AVID READERS! post comment

[12 Feb 2008|08:27pm] I GOT MY WALLET BACK!!!! =DDD ...and so that was the reason why my mood got so high towards the end of school. Woah, I was soooo relieved when I got the wallet. I realised that Singapore do have honest people after all (: I really want to thank the person who returned the wallet to the police post at Bukit Gombak. I heard that it's a girl younger than me...I'm really thankful. Rahhhh, I can't explain this feeling, but it's totally opposite of how I felt when I lost the wallet. Oh man, it's like I've gotten a WHOLE NEW LIFE. Happy happy!!  So my mood was really low low for the past days that I didn't have any mood for anything at all. I swear I will be very very careful from now onwards.  Thank goodness.  To the girl: you've saved a life here, I hope you will get good karma for this and I'm sure that it will happen soon. post comment

[09 Feb 2008|09:46pm] I don't know why the fuck does something like this happen to me during the festive season. It totally spoilt my mood. I volunteered to be the banker today for the card games, cause I felt so empty and just felt like losing and giving out money, turn out I won quite a sum. I felt so guilty and when I wanted to end the game, god mom was kinda offended I guess..they end up losing more anyway.  I was kinda touched by the people who would stand by me during the times of need, my family and friends. Especially Hong Yao, cause he was there with me throughout the night. From bukit gombak to fajar and fajar back to gombak, resulting him with no trains/bus home and had to run back home at 1am. He bought me vodak, accompanied me to the police station and tried his best to cheer me up and ended up being high himself...almost fell (or rather, he tripped...embarrassing but its cute lol)  Nay, if you're reading this, don't be mistaken, I really wanna thank you for being such a great friend all these years (although I still get pissed at you at times, nevertheless!! I accept for who you are!)  With all the haha and lol, I do sound happy and cheery. I'm rather emo now.  Yeah, I lost my wallet. post comment

[06 Feb 2008|11:17pm] I was born on the eve of chinese new year! So my lunar birthday actually falls on eve of the cny. ((: I get double angbaos! Birthday celebration, was great and fun (since I got made FUN of.) Anyway, I feel rather random today. I was watching on the tv and heard a statement made by the actor that 'teochew guys are well-known for being generous.' So I asked mom if that was true, she said yes. My reply was 'then how come my brother is so damn stingy?!' Ohwells, hahaha she said that my brother needs time to mature -.-'' But again, I think teochew guys I know are quite generous, just to name a few, my uncle, my father and this friend I had before. Hmm =/ Tomorrow's gonna be a long day since my godfather agreed to let me tag along with him to bai nian ^^ his family quite big... lol. post comment

[01 Feb 2008|09:46pm] My friend was commenting about the drastic changes in my mood, from a high then suddenly switched back to normal. So, I told her...I'm an unpredictable person, I think friends from secondary school should agree on this.  Oh people, I realised that I'm getting old...I wanna try out all the thing cool and fun things in the world before I grow old and become too weak to enjoy... I wanna go to the butter factory, velvet underground, double o, walawala, blah blah..  I'm going to the acid bar with qs,trish,cal and fifi on Saturday to celebrate my early birthday ^^ Sunday is rest day (studying day lor) I'm looking forward to Monday's visit to Settler's cafe at Holland V! Shall blog and post photos after I get there. Oh yeah, eskibar-ing when prissy comes back :D I feel so eggcitied man!! Chinese new year is around the corner as well, chu er and chu san is going to be spent with friends!! Oh yeah, ql...when going to your house for mahjong again? ;DDD 4 comments|post comment

[31 Jan 2008|08:34pm] Hello, do people know the basic courtesy of replying an sms and even the 21768754107 number of missed calls by a friend? I feel so pissed, cause I felt like a servant who had to wake a little boy. And that 'little boy' didn't even bother to reply, I mean one should at least inform the person that he's awake already when he is right? Or rather, reply/call back when he has awoken, if not how the hell is the other party is gonna know he is awake or still sleeping. This is because, as promised, I will call him until he wakes...but fuck, I don't even know if the person is awake already. I think this is very rude. There isn't any sense of appreciation here. I was late for school again, bah only slept for like 2 hours... I kinda like staying up through the night now, enjoying the serenity. My mom's giving me loads of headache at home now, like always, going against me when she's in a bad mood and what sucks the most is that she's always in a bad mood. Fuck, what did I do to deserve this, just because I didn't want to retaliate means that I'm weak and you can just push me around. People, please laugh cause the things she will ever curse/scold me about is over domestic issues. For god's sake, I'm her daughter, not her maid. I can't understand why she as a mom, do all the housework chores. I really hate doing things like this, fuck next time I'll prolly just hire a maid lorrrr and I have someone in mind already! TMD. Friends found me a little unusual today. It's because, I've been thinking during yesterday's one day break from school, I realised yeah it's time. post comment

--- [30 Jan 2008|02:55pm] Sigh, I don't know, why simple things like this can affect anyone's relationship so easily... I'm pissed off. I need to hang around with HAPPY people! Home was boring, I don't like being alone afterall =( People like to contradict themselves all the time, and that's because sometimes we don't really understand ourselves. We get confused.  Boring day really. Don't even know why I here. Mixed feelings now. Mundane life. We lament and yet there are people out there worse off than us, people who don't even have the chance to live longer... Unappreciative, when is gonna be the time? The time to enjoy the fruit of hard labour and what if, when the time comes... its time to leave. How wasted.  work hard, work hard, work hard as they say. post comment

no joking matter [25 Jan 2008|09:47pm] Econs test was pretty fine today. Loads of things happened recently and some left me pondering about my life, myself and the people around me. For the most recent horrible thing that happened to me is that I sprained my ankle and it feels numb now...sigh everyone just bother to laugh at me and forgot to ask about my well-being, they didnt even try to feign concern you know, actually I haven't realise this fact if its not for a friend who started to reflect on her actions lol....well done. But I understand...hahahhaa it was funny I guess.  Another big thing is that our class won the best play award during Drama fest '08. Excitement and joy was in the air, but it kinda died off fast as well. I almost gave up helping since I sprained my ankle, but I'd still turn up and bear with the pain since I know that there has been a lack of backstage crew already..  I realised one thing, I don't like being ordered around, I don't like people telling me what I should do, how I should feel and shouldn't feel without being asked by me for advice. I get pissed off like this. One classmate told me to take off my shoes when I already did in a v bad tone and the worse thing was that she kicked my chair from behind when she instructed me to do so. You see, there wasn't any respect given to me. And so I got kinda angry and replied in a very pissed tone.  I just wanna show people my true emotions, I don't really care how they think. I just want them to know that I'm not the kind to be trifled with.  Not linked, but some reflections: I have a bad temper. I know I like to argue alot, but at times I just wanna be right. I mean I want to be always right and I'll just fight my way, although times I'm too lazy to argue.. Whatever it is, I stand still to my decision and thoughts regardless of what and how others think to it.  I don't understand what is fucking wrong with being afraid of ghostly spirits that you don't even know whether if it exist, but you just can feel them. It's like god, you don't even know if it really existed but people still worship it like.... it do exist, although without concrete evidence. So my point is, there is no wrong to have my own belief, my superstitions...no one has that right to laugh about it and especially if that someone doesn't like to be laughed at this kinda stuffs. Another point is that, everyone has their own fears and mine is that I'm afraid of offending/meeting into the dead wandering spirits... so what's the problem? It's pointless to argue over such trivia matters. People keep taking me lightly and yet complain that I'm not serious all the time... but trust me, you won't want Michelle to be serious (: My conclusion, I enjoy being myself, I love myself. I accept you for who are and I don't judge you by your beliefs and fears. Thus I expect the same from the rest. 2 comments|post comment

((: [19 Jan 2008|12:54am] Chinese new year is just around the corner and so is my birthday. I'm reaching 19! and soon enough I will hit the number 2. I'm happy, cause it has been my wish to grow up faster! I wish that I can live fast and die young...touch wood yeah. But I have a bad feeling...that's not the point anyway. I'm really optimisitic bout life and even if the world's gonna end, I don't care lol.  Okay, so cny has been always the same old thing, being stuck at grandma's house while cousins are out to their other relatives house. So, I've decided to make a change this year!! I don't wanna be cooped at someone's else home, I wanna be out! With friends and other people whom I feel comfortable with (: We're in the midst of planning! Hoho!  So eggcitied!!  my plan just didn't include you. 4 comments|post comment

undefined [16 Jan 2008|05:23pm] Life doesn't seem that so appealing anymore.  Crying doesn't solve the problem, sleeping doesn't stop the problem,  and the above are only temporary exit.  It'll just make one feel slightly better for some time, but not for long, the negative emotions would be back again. I wonder if anyone really cares, I wonder if there's anyone who would just accept what  I say and think and behave How would anyone react to the stories I'm gonna say? I'd think the best way would be to feign happiness,  no one would know, since really, no one will be able to understand. appreciation, acceptance, attention, love and respect where do I get?  I feel like the greatest fool on earth.  Somethings can't be explained,  but I want some enlightenment Why do I have to pay for this,  what have I done wrong? I've been...myself Hatred.  Revenge. Is it gonna end?  Goodbye.

[15 Jan 2008|08:42pm] From the mistakes of others, I have learnt not to trust people that easily.  It's diffcult  for others to gain my trust but its damn easy for them to lose that trust I put in them. Fuckin screwed up day, making a fruitless trip down to the agency just to collect a mere pathetic $114. I feel so cheated since they have promised to issue my pay check of full amount by 15th Jan 2008. From November's pay until now, amount to a 4 digit sum of money. They've got no integrity as well. I may seem very calculative by probing on the amount of money paid to me, and thank god I did double/triple check, they've missed out $80 plus.  I don't know, but I'm just very angry and how can anyone expect someone angry to comfort another someone who is depressed for no particular reason mentioned, but showing some signs of sadness only. I'm not a doctor, I won't know how you feel unless you tell me or when you're willing to share with me. Bah, I'm easily irritated. post comment

Shadow of the day [14 Jan 2008|09:44pm] I close both locks below the window I close both blinds and turn away Sometimes solutions aren't so simple Sometimes good-bye's the only way (Oh) And the sun will set for you The sun will set for you And the shadow of the day Will embrace the world in gray And the sun will set for you And carved in flowers on your window Your friends all plead for you to stay Sometimes beginnings aren't so simple Sometimes good-bye's the only way (Oh) And the sun will set for you The sun will set for you And the shadow of the day Will embrace the world in gray And the sun will set for you And the shadow of the day Will embrace the world in gray And the sun will set for you And the shadow of the day Will embrace the world in gray And the sun will set for you post comment

Shopping spree @ work [13 Jan 2008|10:16pm] I eat not because I was hungry, but bored. Freaky, I spent like 100 over bucks today!! I've decided to pay for my own lit text as well since my mom has been dragging it like 28962861 ago and I'm so sick and tired of it. It's still better to depend on myself. And!!! This is one of the benefits to have your own savings, you can do whatever you want, meaning I got the power!!! Yeah!  Ohwells, great day I say. Tell me which company pay you to shop. LOL...guilty actually. I reported for work, but I didnt work. I went to watch soccer,shopping alone and with sh. And I realised that shopping with guys can be a fun thing as well! :3 rarely find guys who likes to shop hahahah!! My new best friend eh. Okay, so this weekend has been really kind cause I have got friends like Kai Li and Hong Yao who dropped by with me for lunch and dinner respectively. I found out that Hy can be quite serious at times too!! Like whoa, I couldn't believe my ears when we talked about serious stuffs, I thought he has always been the childish and joking type =X sorry heh.  I'm getting my pay soon!!! I don't have to report how much I spend to my mother because I'm using my own money! I think I'm wasting money lol, since I have already bought cny clothes. Erm, I know my thoughts are kinda disorganized. But let me continue to brag! Oh nvm, no mood liao. Mood swings yet again! I don't know why, argh and you know me, I spend alot and eat alot only when my mood's down. Bah. I suddenly got so pissed with mom that I actually said to pay for my own literatue text costing over $90 bucks.. wow. Pride is so expensive. //edit I ate alot of junk today 1. Ice kachang 2. Sushi!! 9 pieces I think 3. Garlic bread 4. Pokka green tea 5. Chicken rice  6. Starbuck green tea latte 7. Popcorn chicken!!  Omg, I have been consuming chicken for the weekend eew yesterday was kfc and grilled chicken with curry rice. I feel so blessed that I actually have pc tmr! 2 comments|post comment

[05 Jan 2008|10:00pm] Had a really bad day falling sick. Immunity system is running low. First it was sore throat, then it came the cramp and cough later. I think I have been really stressful since the sitex period, since I always seem to miss my period only during the month of major pc shows. Weird right, man I hate cramps :( why only girls get it.  Now I only feel like dying lying back to bed for more rest so that I can start on my homework tomorrow. I think I'm feeling slightly better after consuming my dinner...at least I don't feel so giddy already. I can't fall sick now! (: at least I have a little brother to care for me! he was so sweet cause he offered to clean the kitchen for me...run errands for me like fetching me stuffs. so nice yeah, i'm really touched..T.T 1 comment|post comment

[02 Jan 2008|08:38pm] Happy New Year everyone. Yesterday had a great new year celebration with friends lol...not really celebrate but we spent time together gambling playing mahjong :D bahhh, I always don't win much at the end one hahah but not as bad as qs losing 3 bucks, we played 20 cents only -.-'' Yup, gathering at ql's house was wonderful ((: thanks eh!! Bah..met someone working at JP! LOL I can get free supply of taiwan food liao... then today brought my friends to see the person!! hahaha, we all had a great laugh X= mean right. The person is friendly though.  Today went to register driving with ql and this was what happened at the counter: CS attendant: So you two opting for manual or auto driving course? Us: Oh but manual seems to be more useful right? I still prefer auto though, tell me the difference? CS attendant: Study auto cannot drive manual car,but study manual can drive auto car Me: Er, but my uncle says that nowadays very few manual cars, seldom people wants CS attendant: But manual is better, cos not only can drive auto as well but also can upgrade to license 4A and 5A Us: huh? whats 4A and 5A? CS attendant: Oh it means that you will be able to drive heavy vehicles. Us: *blank* =| HAHAHHA wth kan bu qi us...cos manual means that we're able to drive sports car, but instead she used heavy vehicles as examples lol.  RAHH School was boring! But thank god kathy was there to hear my nonsense thoughts. Boo, I can't wait to graduate and leave!! hoho. Thinking of school = teachers. Ocean Koh came over to me for a short chat today, she asked me about work and its the most interesting topic that I can ever touch on! I like to share my job experiences beri beri much cause its so fun. She told me to do my civics talk on how to do sales... my main motive was 'eh so you mean I'm allowed to sell laptops to the school? *BEAMS*' and for those who have know... this thought/idea has been on my mind for quite some time...and I even approached Toshiba if a plan could be worked out.. then Ocean Koh suddenly gave me this encouragement to go ahead with it.. kinda happy ((: For the money, I wouldn't mind anything like doing a talk on how to do well in sales. In fact! I have been thinking of writing a book on it if I ever become successful ^^  Ambitious eh? But it CAN happen! Dreams dreams dreams...will come true if actions are done (: So new year new resolution: 1. Graduate soon and get into a Business school! 2. Save another 5k by this year 3. Work as a full time promoter after A levels  4. Get a complete driving license 5. Get started on my 'ideas' by creating a proposal. 6. MUG!!!!! 7. Get a cute boyfriend LOL!! (eh kidding!) Be a more disiplined person. 8. Sleep early!!! (got eyebags alr =C ) 9. Improve my communication skills 10. Don't be late for school! 4. Earn at least 14k during 7 months of holidays 3 comments|post comment

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